It's a chilly morning..2 hours before Eve shows up.Phelix and Victor have gone to Athiriver and am here with siz and Sally.Am nervous.I don't know if the money I have is enough to make me accomplish my goals today,but am really hoping that things will work out.Some guy wants us to believe that the world ends today...ofcourse,maybe his world...but that still gives me a reality check.I am far from God.I must do something.If lets say it was really true,and I didn't know,and it really happens,am sure I'd be doomed...with the kind of stuff am going through right now..ha!God knows.

Eve was telling we yesterday that she doesn't go to church,but she believes in God,and she prays...I am a bit away from that even now.I mostly only pray when am about to have a meal.Thank God am now the secretary of a new ministry formed yesterday in Pumwani.I hope I'll get the help I need.I love my God and I feel like am letting him down.

So,right now,am just listening to some music.I want to fetch some water as my heart pumps faster.Just a few hours to go...(then she calls to say she ain't coming).